Saturday, August 7, 2010

Summer Food

Yan stands a half-forehead taller than me, but her delicate frame carries at least ten pounds less than mine. By looks, you wouldn't think she can out-eat me by a mile.

Yan (and my brother) is actually responsible for my becoming a slight foodie. Last summer, we trekked to New York City to experience her holy grail of fine dining, Jean-Georges, along with a cheap and quick Gourmet-magazine-writer-friend-recommended hole-in-the-wall Japanese eatery (no seating aside from a bench outside the shop), and the slightly infamous Momofuku milk bar (which does not even print its own name on the storefront - you are just supposed to know).

Most of the time, I subsist on supermarket-brand multigrain bagels, a tub of hummus, whatever yogurt is on sale this week, the same goes for fruit, and carrots and lettuce, sometimes tomatoes. Day-to-day, I care more about satisfying my nutrition, being conscious of vitamin intake and avoiding processed foods, than my cravings, and more about value, comparing unit prices and targeting items discounted by my Shaw's savings card, than taste. As a college student on a budget, it's essential to be diligent in the daily chore of feeding myself. But once in a while, I enjoy sitting down to savor well-crafted food.

This summer's eating kicked off with a visit to Rendezvous in Central Square with Yan. The yellow awning framing the restaurant had always impressed upon me a sense of tackiness, the way plastic cutlery would dull the shine of a five-star setting. The interior is handsome, however, with dark hardwood floors, blond hardwood tables, and a yellow brick wall on the side of the room lined by the bar. When we arrived at five, the dining room was almost empty, it being early, endowing the room with a feel of airy spaciousness. Late afternoon light flooded in from the large storefront windows; it was the light that occurs fifteen minutes before a surprise rain shower--already, a few rogue drops had begun to fall--a warm waning glow with menacing gray undertones.

Throughout the course of the meal, we were attended to by three different members of the waitstaff, including one who was quite handsome (much like the interior). The service was courteous but a bit detached, I felt--nice, but without personality. Charm, I think though, is a quality of the individual servers more than a reflection on the restaurant (although a restaurant would be culpable for hiring truly rude staff).

Ceviche of halibut with salsa verde, rooftop radishes and mint

As an aside, I always feel like asking waiters their names, as if we should introduce ourselves, since we are two people who have just met. I mentioned this to Yan during the meal, and she replied, "I don't feel that way. They never ask you your name." I had never thought of that. Servers, I figured, don't ask you your name because they aren't your equals in their role, in that particular social transaction. (You, however, as the guest, are free to demand this information of them.) The inequality explains my discomfort with being served at restaurants, especially as the luxurious touches ramp up (i.e. pulling out and pushing in your chair for you, or wiping crumbs from your tablecloth between courses). The discomfort must also stem from some internal indignance; in accepting these luxuries, I silently exclaim, "as if I couldn't do that myself!"

Braised pork and veal meatballs with toasted orecchiette, maitakes and piave cheese

The food was good. For the price, I thought it should have been better; still I was impressed by the meatball dish, whose excessive butteryness was both the bane and joy of it. The appetizer was small, though fresh--they grow their own herbs on the roof. The dessert was disappointing though: too sweet, nothing special. A small spoonful of Yan's jasmine rice pudding made me regret choosing the lemon-buttermilk.

Lemon-buttermilk pudding with huckleberry sauce

After this meal, I did not feel compelled to return.
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Last weekend my brother returned home. I don't recall having seen him for a year; over winter break he was in China, and he's working in Chicago this summer. For the occasion, I treated my family to lunch at Market by Jean-Georges, a throwback to last summer's holy grail in NYC.

The restaurant is an appendage of the upscale W Boston hotel. The decor suggests the pure and natural: all furniture is colored in shades of grays, blacks, and white; the small bread plate is a dense stone-like slate; at the center of each table, a clipped flower sits in an egg-shaped ceramic pot designed to resemble an rock. The lofty ceiling lies maybe thirty to forty feet up, and an equally tall sheet of glass makes up the street-facing wall, providing most of the restaurant's day lighting.

The place setting at Market by Jean-Georges

Our server was an older gentleman with an invisible and effortless grace. His manner, though I could not pinpoint any specifics, put me at ease. He did, at one point, wink at me from afar after just having served our table, as if in an inside joke that he thought I knew. I'm sorry I didn't ask his name.

Foreground: Crispy clams in basil salt with chili dipping sauce
Background: House-made Cherry-Yuzu soda


We each started with an appetizer. My fried clams were gently crunchy and soft and tender on the inside, the dipping sauce so light, even lighter than some whipped cream, and flavored perfectly--in a way I can only describe as "delicate"--as to make known its presence while complimenting the clams. The cherry-yuzu soda was a unique, sweet, slightly tart flavor I'd never encountered in my life, and truly delicious. Finally, the pizza crust was thin and crisp, the bread itself yeasty and wholesome, the cheese salty and flavorful, with greens drizzled with olive oil in the middle. In every dish here, I could taste quality. It's the taste of everything being done right, because someone paid attention to the details. It's something I did not strongly detect at Rendezvous, or most anywhere else I've been.

Black Truffle Pizza with Fontina Cheese

I will return to Market.

Tuesday, June 22, 2010

Biking to Work

I've decided to bike to work, from about Central Square in Cambridge to Lexington. Altogether it's about 12.5 miles each way. Biking is much more economical (I would be spending about $8.40 on public transport every day) and time-saving (instead of sitting on the bus/train for two hours, I get up to three hours of exercise).

Here's the log of the first few days:

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Saturday, I took a test run to check out the roads. I left at noon, at the peak of the day's heat, and forgot sunscreen, and neglected to put on my sunglasses until I realized my eyes were burning. That was painful. I also went down a few wrong roads on the way there. Upon reaching the office, my nose bled. On the way back, I decided to take an alternate route (not Mass Ave), and got a little confused around Harvard Square, but not for much.
Way there: 1 hour 40 mins
Way back: 1 hour 20 mins

Yesterday, I left at 5:47 AM. In the afternoon, I left the office early, at 4 PM, in hopes of beating the traffic, but I seem to have just biked into it. It was also very hot then.
Way there: 1 hour 15 mins
Way back: 1 hour 30 mins

This morning, I left at 5:43 AM. A road in Lexington was blocked for paving, and I ended up taking an alternate route, which was wrong. I realized this after I'd gone a fifth of a mile off. I ended up working 11 hours today, leaving from the entrance of Vistaprint at 6:43 PM. A few drops of rain fell on my face not far into my ride, and I got a little scared given those flash downpours Boston has been having. So I biked vigorously, partially driven by fear, especially as I got closer to WILG and the drops got bigger.
Way there: 1 hour 20 mins
Way back: 1 hour exactly: 6:43-7:43 PM

Total: ~75 miles.

Tomorrow I have to take public transport because it's going to rain.

Sunday, June 13, 2010

Commencement

For the past couple of weeks, I've been scuttling between Burton Conner and my hometown. A week at home, a week at BC, a week at home again. Today I moved back to the city for good, since my internship starts tomorrow.

During the week at BC, I tied up loose extracurricular ends, including finishing up a feature story (begun in February) about tenure for The Tech. Then that Friday, I volunteered for Commencement, getting my first glimpse of a day two years from now.

As one of the roughly twenty people assigned to street duty, I witnessed the healthy line outside Killian Hall at 7 AM. It was like a mini-Black Friday; I was told people had started lining up as early as 6, maybe even before. Commencement didn't begin until 10 AM or so. What a long day for a lot of family members.

In the course of the morning, I moved from furiously handing out programs as waves of people entering Killian Court flowed by me, to standing on the Memorial Drive sidewalk saying good-mornings and directing people toward the correct side of the rope that was set up to corral them into a line (next year, they just need an arrow sign).

Around 10:45, I was reappointed to the interior of the Court, where I spent the rest of the day saying, "Please sir could you take a seat? You're blocking everyone's view." One person would go up to the front of the section to take photos, and a pack, a nonstop stream, would follow, leading to a wall of bodies blocking the views of those sitting behind them (a problem of fairness) and packed aisles (a problem of safety).

Tuesday, May 25, 2010

Honoring Patrick Winston

Patrick Winston is a professor of artificial intelligence at MIT. Here's been here, in fact, since 1970, and during that time has honed his teaching to a science. An excellent speaker, he delivers his "How to Speak" talk in 6-120 annually during IAP, which is always oversubscribed and infamous for turning away fifty or so people at the door.


People fill the chairs and steps of 6-120, and even crowd around Winston's feet. (Jan 2009)

His website reveals him to be a man of many endeavors, from research to writing a community blog to befriending Will.i.am of the Black Eyed Peas.

I took 6.034 (Artificial Intelligence) with him last fall, and had such a good experience that when the MIT awards nomination email came around in February, I immediately thought of Winston. I was familiar with the Everett Moore Baker Memorial Award for Excellence in Undergraduate Teaching, since another of my favorite professors, Eric Hudson of Physics (who sadly did not get tenure and is leaving MIT - more about him in a later post), also won this award, in 2008. The Baker award is the only institute-wide teaching award based entirely on nominations from students.

Luckily, throughout 6.034, I had noticed a lot of details that made Winston's class great. When it came time to write the nomination letter, I just sat down and cranked out over five 1.5-spaced pages. Over the next two weeks, I would edit and revise it twice.

I then hunted down people to sign the letter. (It would have been acceptable with only my signature, but more names makes a stronger case.) "Hunt" is not too far from the truth. At the beginning of March, I sorted through the 6.034 class list and emailed all the people I knew, however tenuously, asking them to submit personal anecdotes and sign the letter. At one point, I posted myself outside the entrance to Winston's spring course, 6.803 (The Human Intelligence Enterprise), and intercepted people as they entered the class. I asked my 6.042 TA's to sign, and even the doctorate candidates at my new UROP (in the field of artificial intelligence, no less). I was.. an MIT student on a mission. In the course of my mission I found out that a nomination for Winston had been previously attempted, but had failed, which only made me feel more like this would be the year.

Okay, so I'm getting somewhat dramatic here, though admittedly this was a minor production. At the end, I delivered the nomination letter to the awards office (which is strangely nestled in the DuPont Athletic Center), and hoped the woman I gave it to would take good care of the packet. It occurred to me I hadn't made a copy of the signatures page.

I then kind of forgot about the whole business. I marked May 4, the date of the awards convocation, on my calendar, but I didn't have time to attend that day. Not until yesterday, after finals and everything, did I suddenly remember and check the awards website.


Winston won! My term is complete.



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Below is the nomination letter for Winston. Full names of students have been abbreviated.
It is long (you have been warned) but provides a good review of 6.034 for anyone looking to take it.

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March 10, 2010
Dear MIT Awards Committee,

Sunday, May 23, 2010

Great Videos

Some of my recent favorite videos:


Dan Barber: How I Fell In Love with a Fish




Dan Ariely: Our Buggy Moral Code





Sir Ken Robinson: Bring on the Learning Revolution!





Lewis Black: Glenn Beck's "Nazi Tourette's"
(starts at 1:03)

Thursday, April 1, 2010

A "Grand Unified Theory of AI"

I've been a bit too hosed to update, though (surprise) events have happened.

Yesterday the weekly MIT news report popped into my inbox, and apparently MIT has discovered "a grand unified theory of AI." Uh-oh.
Then Slashdot picked it up.

My thoughts on the matter.

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

A Letter for Stata

Walking back from the Stata basement Athena cluster this evening, I saw a girl sitting on the gray concrete floor outside the room, sobbing as another girl stood over her. As I passed them, I heard the second girl say, "It sounds like it's just been a month and a half of 'I just can't take it...'"

This scene reminded me of last year, the Wednesday night after a frustratingly unfruitful three hours in 6.01 lab, when I thought I couldn't handle life because there was still a DiffEq pset that I hadn't started due Friday, and a SEVT grant to write due Friday, plus this time sink of a 6.01 lab and its pset problems, when I was convinced I was the dumbest person at MIT and that Course 6 was the wrong major after all. My despair compounded during the walk back to Burton Conner. When I got back, I stopped at Kelly and Pallavi's room, slumped against the doorframe, and there the tears broke, heedless of my efforts to restrain them. I cried harder than I had in years. A few minutes later, I returned to my room and calmed down a little, hiccuping and blowing my nose into a million tissues, wiping up the pathetic remnants of the flood. Then Ben, a fellow freshman, walked past, heard my sniffles, and poked his head in to ask what was wrong. "Are you failing any classes?" he asked.

Friday, March 12, 2010

The Secret to Happiness

"The Secret to Happiness: Find something more important than you are and dedicate your life to it." - Dan Dennett


I just watched a TED talk by Dan Dennett, and found this piece of advice profound. [1]

Conversations between Pallavi and me often stray to the question of what we are going to do with our lives. For what are we working so hard now, sacrificing sleep, fun, and maybe a few years of our lives? We're eager to find the thing to justify our current madness, something we will wake up every day wanting to do, something we won't mind even when we no longer have summer vacations.

As much as I like Course 6 right now, I think I would eventually be bored as a software engineer. To be honest, I would rather write essays than computer programs. I see Professor Raman, who got his B.S. from MIT and M.S. from Berkeley in Electrical Engineering, then got his Ph.D in English Literature and became a literature professor at MIT, and understand where he's coming from. But computer science promises a steadier career, and besides, I am not training to be a writer and there are probably many out there better than me who struggle for jobs. I enjoy Computer Science, but it's not enough. I can't do a job that predominantly requires sitting by myself, coding in a cubicle. I am too much of an extrovert. I get my joy from meeting people, affecting people, making new connections.

Lately, I've been thinking about international development as a career focus. It is a cause more important than me. Though I would be satisfied by writing an iPhone app used by a thousand people, I would be more satisfied by bringing drinking water to a village of fifty that had none. Though I hate flying, I do want to see the world, and I'm eying the Peace Corps as an immediate post-graduation plan. My plans are all a few years down the line, and I know more than anyone how rapidly they change: a three-year schedule I wrote over winter break became obsolete two weeks into January. But it's still an important question to consider. A meaningful goal now gives me reason to continue my work.


[1] The rest of Dennett's talk is pretty amazing. (If it wasn't, his rather stylistically unpolished talk would have lost audience member's attention, and likely would not have garnered the hundred thousand views on Youtube. Instead, every time he speaks, he says something worth listening to.) He presents a view of ideas as "living" Darwinian entities, and proposes we consider their existence in a neutral way, much as we consider the existence of harmful viruses neutrally (we think they are bad, and find cures for them, but accept them scientifically as part of life).

Wednesday, March 10, 2010

Halfway

Monday.

As the dark hours of night whittle away to the pale hours of morning, I remain in Mathura's room at McCormick trying to create a working Sudoku solver for 6.005. At times I am so tired I don't know what I'm typing, and am surprised, in momentary bursts of lucidity, by what is on the screen. An hour-and-a-half into an attempt to implement a different approach to converge with Mathura (she claimed to be one elusive print method away), during which I drift from semi-tired to head-bobbing-neck-jerking sleepy, I notice that at some point I'd started revising the wrong file, and realize I don't trust a thing I've done. I go back to check everything. Around eight-thirty, Anjali arrives after hooking up with Keith (he's still in her bed) and tries to help Mathura in a way that I cannot (my mind is soup), and I scrap the work and return to my old code. I think, I should have just spent those hours improving my own code. Beside me Mathura has gone from frustrated to angry to hysterical, has called her mother and cried into the phone about the injustice in the fruitlessness of over forty hours of work, about the injustice that certain others had allegedly finished in two or five hours, about the test she has not studied for, and there is nothing I can do but feel sorry for her, for she has been not sleeping for even longer than me over the past days. I do not panic. I am tired but resigned. I plug away, and watch the clock. Soon it is time for my 9:30 political science class, and I debate going. I go. I arrive late. I cannot keep my eyes open. I cannot focus. I try to take notes, I try very hard, but I cannot remember more than two words at a time. The teacher is talking at his normal speed, he is talking too fast. I sink back in my chair and drop my head and let my heavy lids fall. Occasionally I try to wake up and take notes. I know everyone can see that I'm sleeping, it's a small class, especially when the girl sitting next to me repeatedly responds to questions, and especially the TA can see me, the professor can see me, the cute Kappa Sigma guy across the room (who probably think I'm a stalker after I tried to be too helpful in 7.03 freshman fall) can see me. When the class is over, I have no idea what the lesson was about. I see that my notes are useless illegible chicken scratching.


Tuesday.

I'm in E14-244, a conference room in the New Media Lab, for the monthly MMP program review meeting, the one that all the big names show up to. I feel pretty out of place, among giants; my seat is appropriately off to the side away from the table, which is too full. At the front of the room Gerry Sussman is defending his propagator network adamantly, angrily. His face is red, his words nonstop rapid-fire bullets. He is tearing apart Neil Gershenfeld, who is questioning the usefulness of his work. The more questions Neil asks, the more upset Gerry gets. The more upset Gerry gets, the slower he gets through his slides, the more questions Neil asks. They remind me of an unhappy couple - one is too impatient to hear the other out before opening his mouth, the other's honor cannot sustain a momentary criticism so that he must immediately defend himself and attack the critic. They remind me of my parents - the big difference being that Neil remains calm, displaying only slight perturbation in his voice as Gerry gets more and more excited. He is being attacked, sometimes shown wrong, in front of his illustrious peers. Yet he remains calm in the face of fire and brimstone, and continues to question. In this moment I admire him more for his self-control and self-assurance, even though Sussman is smarter. The rest of the room remains silent for the most part, spectating the fight, half-afraid speaking will lead to being swept into the cyclone.

The meeting, scheduled for two hours, is still not over at 4 'o clock because of Gerry's presentation. No one leaves yet, so I stay and watch the clock anxiously. The meeting ends in another half hour, and I dash out to comment my tortuously slow-running Sudoku solver code before the 5 'o clock deadline, and to write a print method.

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

Literary

I've picked up two HASS classes: (17.551) The Political Economy of Chinese Reform; and (21L.017) The Art of the Probable. The first is excellent, while the other is about as fun as stabbing myself in the eye. (But it's a HASS-D.)

The professor in 17.551, Ed Steinfeld (who is incidentally one letter away from two former TV shows), is an engaging lecturer who has "lived" the material, having experienced China's political economy through teaching in the country for years, including through the 1989 protest. He pronounces Chinese terms in Chinese, and it is frankly the best Chinese I have heard from, well, a white guy. He sounds like a native. It's such an enjoyable classes that I don't mind reading for it (even though the reading took seven hours the first week, when I added the class), because the professor crafts the information into a comprehensible narrative. History becomes a story, and stories are entertaining, which makes him a success. Of course he tells us he doesn't have all the answers, especially on contemporary issues, and we are often conjecturing on why things happened the way they did. Eventually we will ponder what is to come.

Saturday, February 13, 2010

Beethoven the Giant



Last night, I found the piece I want played at my funeral. I also have a new favorite string quartet.

Beethoven mastered string quartet writing. His first set of quartets, Op. 18, are said to just demonstrate that he could do anything that Mozart could do. He gets better and better through his middle quartets, and his late quartets are "widely considered to be among the greatest musical compositions of all time." [1] Steven says he set the bar too high for future generations of composers. But after the performance of the third movement of Op. 132 last night by the Chiara String Quartet, I thought he set the bar a little high for even himself. It was a spiritual experience. I thought, how do you even write another movement to follow that?

I will let the music speak for itself. However, I think the effect is much stronger live, and I encourage you to hear it live.

1. Assai sostenuto — Allegro
2. Allegro ma non tanto
3. Molto AdagioAndante — Heiliger Dankgesang eines Genesenen an die Gottheit, in der lydischen Tonart
4. Alla Marcia, assai vivace (attacca)
5. Allegro appassionato — Presto

Friday, February 5, 2010

Spring Courses

Non-stop hip hop, courtesy of Greg's Pandora station, envelops me in The Tech office. I'm tired and usually this is not what I listen to, but the constant beat combined with catchy melodic hooks and homogeneous lyrics about love and heartbreak make for mind-numbingly easy listening, effective therapy to relax me. I've been here long enough to hear several songs twice. It's a bit after midnight, but I'm here tonight to work.

It's the first Friday of the spring term. Four days of school have passed. Classes are just revving their engines, throwing their first spats of gravel at me as their wheels slip and spin.

I'm taking three and a half classes this term: Math for Computer Science (6.042), Signals and Systems (6.003), and Software (6.005), and the half - Chamber Music (21M.445) as usual. It's a moderate load, though I expect to spend a lot of time on each class, particularly 6.005 (which reportedly takes 30+ hours per week) and 6.003 (which really smart friends have described as "challenging").

Friday, January 1, 2010

A Year of Music

Songs attach themselves to places, eras, and events. [1] For me, they also attach themselves to people. (The easiest way to be memorable to me is to show me a song that sticks.) Here are some songs - mostly for my memory, and partially for anyone looking for music recommendations - that I've naturally come to associate with people this year, in rough chronological order.

Soul Coughing: "Is Chicago, Is Not Chicago" - David S.
Sufjan Stevens (artist) [2]: George H.
Ratatat: "Seventeen Years" - Hayman
Jesse McCartney: "Right Where You Want Me" - Pallavi P.
Vienna Teng: "Recessional" - Ben C.
Leonard Berstein: "Maria" (from West Side Story) - Aaron S.
Billy Joel: "So It Goes" - Aaron S.
Cake: "Short Skirt, Long Jacket" - Kelly R.
Silversun Pickups: "Lazy Eye" - Pallavi P.
Beethoven: String Quartet Op. 131 [2] - Steven J.
Weezer: "My Name is Jonas" - Dennis M.